All the times I thought I have forgoten everything but now I found I was cheating myself. I indulges in absent-minded daydreaming and dream of changing the result but the more I fantasize, the painful I will. I do not want to live like this ,really don't want to but what I can do for myself, I do not know at all. I am not the one who is wrong but always the one who gets hurt .How can I get rid of it ,I am really tired of living like this . 完全自己翻译,望不吝采纳